Up in the Middle of the Night, Again.

I can't sleep. I don't want to sleep. It feels like everyday I wake up to is more confusing than the last. Right now it looks like I'll have to move if I want to go to a school where I could stand studying.

I know that I'm lucky to have the opportunity to get a good education and a mam who helps me fight for it, but I wish we didn't have to fight this hard.
And I miss believing that everything's going to work out. And I want to know what was so wrong with the plans I made, why they couldn't just work out.
Why can't I just be normal?

But some things are still great.
Love just became an uncle and I'm going over to his place this Friday.
I'm having a picnic tomorrow (which is technically today since it's waaay past bedtime....)

And I found this:
http://www.simonscat.com/stickytape.html


If I didn't know better I'd say that this is my own sweet baby turned into a cartoon, but she's sitting right next to me demanding shrimps and cuddles so that's a wee bit impossible... 


Sorry I can't be more uplifting.... Here's some stuff from a couple of good days :)

Today is a good day

Tomorrow will be great

Last week might have hurt me

Or made me feel irate

But the future’s filled with happiness

I’ve said goodbye to hate

Fruit and tea and sandwiches

A small blueberry-pie

The old, softly worn blanket

Tiny clouds high in the sky

It is time for this year’s first picnic

For winter to say bye-bye