So Tired.... So Happy....

I'm having lunch with a deer today. It's right outside my garden, eating grass and flowers, about twenty meters from where I sit with my plate of veggies. It's brown, graceful and so small it's hard to see in the high grass of the meadow. 

I was going to write about the stress of preparing the house for my sister's graduation party, finding an apartment, falling (big time, for the second time in my life) for a guy who actually likes me and keeping track of three types of medicines. I'm not thought. Watching that deer as I breathe warm summer-air and fill my tummy with cool bell-peppers and cucumber makes me relax. I've still got a ton of stuff to do, but I'm not stressed out anymore. 

And, also, I'm happy. 

I managed to stay single for a week and felt a bit guilty for finding someone just seven days after breaking up with Love, but it's okay now. We've gone our separate way and mine happened to cross that of my boy-o. It feel right, it feels good, it feel mind-boggeling and knee-wobbeling scary. 

I'm happy.

I'm actually happy.